Another academic year over nearly over and time for reflection....I started the year wishing for it to be the previous year, where my entire year group were still together and i would get another additional year at school in the future years to come. 8 months later i still wish for that, but not as much, i know that a lot of things stayed the same, spending time with those that i love the most, still having to pull late nights/early mornings to finish essays etc. but this year i made new friends, a more optimistic approach with the years to come and learnt to work even harder than i've ever done before. The other day, i was in one of my exams, i finished writing half an hour early, with a headache and feeling drained, and thought to myself why do i bother putting myself through this, revising for exams, causing my stress and panic if i can't remember a certain quote or sociologist, but then i thought what else do i have? i haven't even got a part time job, or a specific career in mind right now. And right now, when i get out of this exam, i'll have the people that help me enjoy education waiting right outside the door. I have amazing friends who i could not live without and the best teacher you could ever wish for, who means so much more than just a teacher to me, as they provides me with 'hidden' support, advice and inspires me each and everyday without even knowing it.
You go through school everyday wishing 3'oclock would hurry up faster and that the summer holiday would be just around the corner. But i found as i got older and older summer didn't seem fun anymore, it seemed like a period of time, where i would be without the people that i spend 5 days a week with, who provide me with love and never ending fun and happiness. I left compulsory education just under 11 months ago and it was one of the hardest things i have ever gone through, baring in mind that i was returning to the same school in just over 2 months time. 11 months ago i said goodbye to people i have not seen since, including people that were at one point seen as my bestfriend(s), in a way it saddens me that i didn't even take a year to pull us all apart but in another way it's shown me who i really love and want in my life, and has allowed me to appreciate those that i get to see everyday.
The memories of school will hopefully always be in my mind, because i really do believe that they are the best days of your life. School is were i learnt how to follow my heart instead of head and allowed me to put that theory into practice, on more than one occasion. School provided me with a great education which i can be proud of especially shown in my qualifications, it taught me that if i want something really badly, that me as an individual will have to work hard each day to achieve greatness, especially if i'm not naturally talented in that area or if it means a great deal to me. It helped show me that teachers only want the best for you, they share everything they know with you, to help you achieve your dreams and to provide a comfortable life for yourself. Most of all it taught me that if i want something really bad then i have to be persistent and be prepared to fail before i can achieve that greatness, as failure helps motivate and provide you with a drive to stop failure recurring in the future.
When i was waiting for my exam results last year, i reminded myself of this...."what ever is on that piece of paper doesn't change you as a person, it just determines whether your path to greatness is a smoother journey or requires you to work a little bit harder."
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